Why am I blogging?

• the universe told me to speak up , so here I am
• my husband (bless his heart) can only listen for so long before he gets totally freaked out!
• everyone is doing it (or at least thats what I was told)

So here I go, answering the call and taking up time that I should be spending doing something else that is much more productive. (like finding a job) The guilt is killing me can you tell?? Or is the 4 pack of Twix bars, extra large Monster Rehab and the Salted nut roll that are talking? It was probably that and the goings on this morning that inspired this choice, or at least the decision to actually go through with it. (Of course I've been thinking about blogging for sometime now, who wouldn't its so easy and fun and therapeutic)

back to the universe> not that I am more worthy of being heard than anyone else, this is simply not true. it is true that my story is somewhat unique and interesting and full of juicy tidbits to keep anyone enticed. It might as well be on a blog, my story, better than being stuck inside my head, or being thrown at my husband like he's supposed to get me.

my husband> yes, he is a gem, and I love him, we have been married for almost 8 years, dear lord is that all??? It feels so wrong that it should only be 8 years, we have been through so much more than 8 years worth. Anyway, he is the classic couch potato, watching TV oh I would say easy 8 hours a day. (He is laid off his job and has been since Dec 22 2011, or somewhere around there). Way more time facing himself than any man should think he could deal with. He is losing it.

everyone is doing it> frankly I don't really care about what the masses are doing. Its just really not that important to me. I'm just more into real and honest. at least that is what I tell myself. and it is extremely difficult for me to be in a relationship that matters to me and not tell the honest truth. I really despise those people who are fake and really only care about the way they appear to others. I guess really I should cut them a break, I have read that when you have a problem with someone else its because that personality trait you see in them reminds you of something inside of you that you are not OK with. I'm sure this is true, but I would prefer to not be so conscious to that, cause frankly I have issues with some people, and that is what is honest for me. And ... well .. this is my blog afterall.