Saturday, March 17, 2012

Am I Crazy?

these are the reasons I could possibly be crazy
  • I am always cold, yet I insist on eating ice
  • I have the sense of smell of a coyote and we are not even related
  • I sort stuff when I'm stressed out

I am of the mindset that anytime you add ice to your drink of choice, it automatically turns into a treat, like a slushy or something. but it has to be the right kind of ice, I'm very partial to my own ice that comes out of my freezer; and it has to be crushed, not cubed. In fact when I was working, I would take a huge container of crushed ice from my freezer to work and keep it in the fridge there, so I could have it in my water (or drink of choice) every day. It is kind of a security for me. However, I am always cold, and like blankets on my if I'm sitting for a long period of time. call me crazy.

my sense of smell drives me and my family crazy- I'm sitting in the side chair at this very minute, not on the couch because the couch is putting off this kind of pungent smell, like really stinky socks or someones sweaty armpits or a combination of both. My husband is kinda crude when he says that I can smell a fart before it comes out of someones colon, but its true! As far as super powers I could have thought of some others that would have been nicer to have. My son would rather me have some other power too. He is 15 and every time he sits down, I smell his feet, his socks even when he claims they are clean. My husband has this pair of shoes, that every time he sits down and I am within 3 feet of them, I can smell them, its not dirty sock smell, its like wearing your shoes out in the rain and having them get soaked through... then its after they dry.. smell. Its only this one pair of shoes, too... maybe I should burn them, or throw them to the dogs.

My son got home the other day from school, and I realized I might be crazy when I was so excited to show him what I had been doing all day- sorting a huge bag of buttons. I was so excited cause I had this epiphany that I could sell my button collection and make enough money to help support us. Its this bag of buttons I have had since my crafting days back when my daughter was 18 months old. (she is 19 now). I had them all divided out, then sorted into coordinating colors that matched, took pictures of the groups and put them on ksl.com to sell. I thought it was an ingenious idea! It wasn't until the buttons didn't sell, and I was back in the same room sorting another bag of stuff (screws, nails, and washers etc) that I wondered if there was something seriously wrong with me. I think things should have there own place to call home, even if the location of said home is only a place that I know about. that's not crazy now... is it?

Why am I blogging?

  • the universe told me to speak up , so here I am
  • my husband (bless his heart) can only listen for so long before he gets totally freaked out!
  • everyone is doing it (or at least thats what I was told)

So here I go, answering the call and taking up time that I should be spending doing something else that is much more productive. (like finding a job) The guilt is killing me can you tell?? Or is the 4 pack of Twix bars, extra large Monster Rehab and the Salted nut roll that are talking? It was probably that and the goings on this morning that inspired this choice, or at least the decision to actually go through with it. (Of course I've been thinking about blogging for sometime now, who wouldn't its so easy and fun and therapeutic)

back to the universe> not that I am more worthy of being heard than anyone else, this is simply not true. it is true that my story is somewhat unique and interesting and full of juicy tidbits to keep anyone enticed. It might as well be on a blog, my story, better than being stuck inside my head, or being thrown at my husband like he's supposed to get me.

my husband> yes, he is a gem, and I love him, we have been married for almost 8 years, dear lord is that all??? It feels so wrong that it should only be 8 years, we have been through so much more than 8 years worth. Anyway, he is the classic couch potato, watching TV oh I would say easy 8 hours a day. (He is laid off his job and has been since Dec 22 2011, or somewhere around there). Way more time facing himself than any man should think he could deal with. He is losing it.

everyone is doing it> frankly I don't really care about what the masses are doing. Its just really not that important to me. I'm just more into real and honest. at least that is what I tell myself. and it is extremely difficult for me to be in a relationship that matters to me and not tell the honest truth. I really despise those people who are fake and really only care about the way they appear to others. I guess really I should cut them a break, I have read that when you have a problem with someone else its because that personality trait you see in them reminds you of something inside of you that you are not OK with. I'm sure this is true, but I would prefer to not be so conscious to that, cause frankly I have issues with some people, and that is what is honest for me. And ... well .. this is my blog afterall.