Much about Nothing

What to say when you are completely without any creative options to the dilemma that is at hand??  I have never been out of work not on purpose, and I have never been out of work at the same time my husband is out of work.  I suppose this is the reason for the intense stress I am feeling.  I am sincerely asking the Universe whats up? I really am not all against learning valuable lessons and in fact I am all for learning, but this is ridiculous!  It really sucks that you don't get to choose in what order you learn the vital lessons we are supposed to learn in this life.  Maybe I would just opt out and that's why the Universe is in control? That really could be it, however I would like to think I was up for the challenge and would willingly raise my hand and say..." pick me!... pick me!.... pick me to lose everything monetary that I have ever owned and yes please throw in physical turmoil and emotional instability as well!"

No I really do trust the Universe, I know it will work out in the end, it is just not for me to know how it will work out.  I guess to prove that I am willing to go out on a limb, and keep going even though all hope seems lost. 

In fact, I really think this is a hidden blessing, one that probably shouldn't be so difficult to see.  My husbands job opportunity was out of state and was going to last for over a year.  It would have been a really good opportunity to make some good money, and help get some of our debt gone, but alas.. it was not to be.  In fact it took an act of Nature and the failure to secure certain work permits in order to stop him from going.  Considering that our relationship has been on the mend for the last 6 months, and it has been the #1 goal of mine and his, I guess I owe the Universe a thank you. 

THANKS UNIVERSE!

I hope that is enough, I really need to know what more I need to do, or what more we need to do, or maybe just appreciate that we actually have a marriage now that we didn't 6 months ago, in fact there are many things I can be grateful for at this very moment.  I think a list is in order:

-My health is better than it has been in a long time and I am so much more in tune and happy with my body. This is awesome!
-My husband and I are so good, better than we have been in a really long time.  We talk about real stuff and can bring up stuff that is hard for us, and we are dealing with our insecurities on a daily basis.  This is awesome!
-My 15 yr old is bringing home a report card with a GPA of 3.7.  He has never even come close to a 3.0 his whole high school career! He is doing so great and has an awesome attitude.  I'm so proud of him!
-I am really truly happier than I have been in a very long time, true happiness, happiness that I can be proud of.  I feel awesome about this!
-I have a great life and great kids that are figuring out their stuff, and are good kids and becoming great people in this world, and I am so happy for them!

Overall, I think I have A LOT to be happy about, now lets just hope my bill collectors are as impressed as I am...